Friday, April 30, 2004
meeting up wif the pretty babes was really fun. its juz felt so good to see everyone again. so many things to catch up.ate alot but its was damn shiok!!!! haha~ will deffinately go back suki sishi again! haha~ n wyee gonna treat me nydc when we meet up next time haha~ i'm gonna eat alot haha~ really happie to see huiping n peng r blissfully happy wif their darlings! hehe~ dun make me jealous haha! oh ya! aniwae i'm actually wking as a teacher at a student care centre now haha~ helping out kids wif their wk hee~ at patson's learning centre. can u imagine it? haha~ rach wif kids? hehe~ dun noe why there is a sudden change for me too... it was not long ago when i hated kids like shit!!! bah~~~~ but now i enjoyed wking wif children so much so much.. though it can be really demanding n tiring sometimes... erm maybe everytime... haha~ alot of things have been running thru my mind recently.. making me kinda of stress... i wan to do so many things but i juz cant get myself really concentrate n really believe dat i can do all of it if i wan too. i really wan to wk hard for this nsl season. selection for next yr 21 n open teams gonna be based on the performance for nsl. i wanna go new zealnd ofr the overseas playing opportunities thing... i wan to win the asian youth champ!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!get the fire burning babe!!!!
fcuk you!||4/30/2004 10:18:00 AM
Thursday, April 29, 2004
i tinki got damn drunk yesterday... cant remember clearly.. bet i made a big fool out of myself.. though it was kind of fun to be able to dance like some siao cha bo and didnt hav to care how others look at you... coz u cant even stand properly... cant see properly.. everything juz keep spinning... it's crazy... even now my head still spinning... boo~ was quite upset yest actually but as usual rach is damn good at hiding ma... haiz~ cant seem to shoot properly for dun noe how long liao... cant perform to my personal expectation is the right way to phrase it... n the feeling sucks big time. cant get the shiokness. the sense of satisfaction. how da hell am i gonna represent the country dis way man. i wanna do some many tings but ........... things r falling out...
fcuk you!||4/29/2004 09:26:00 AM
Saturday, April 24, 2004
IMPOSSIBLE IS JUST A BIG WORD THROWN AROUND BY SMALL MEN WHO FIND IT EASIER TO LIVE IN THE WORLD THEY'VE BEEN GIVEN THAN TO EXPLORE THE POWER THEY HAVE TO CHANGE IT. IMPOSSIBLE IS NOT A FACT. IT'S AN OPINION. IMPOSSIBLE IS NOT A DECLARATION. IT'S A DARE. IMPOSSIBLE IS POTENTIAL. IMPOSSIBLE IS TEMPORARY. IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.
fcuk you!||4/24/2004 11:42:00 PM
THE EXHILARATION OF AFTER
who unbridled your enthusiasm?
everything's great!
good will surges thru you.
you juz lifted the turnable needle off the problem record
and put on something different. somethinng danceable.
!!!
it's hard to keep yourself from leaping in the air.
like some character in an old movie.
yeah. that kind of happy.
you are nikebeautiful.
fcuk you!||4/24/2004 11:39:00 PM
first game wif arowanas.... tink i really played very badly today.. suck.... bad shots.. bad movement... dat means i hav really alot of things to wk on man... still not strg enuff physically... realise dat god is very fair... u cant hav the best of everything.. i tink i got to decide sooner or later.. skinny or muscular? the malaysians r really huge n strg.. i hav to admit dat even i get bounce off my defender occasionally.. yes dat's how strg they r... for ur info.. i hav already been piling up the weights dat im doing during weights training... neh.. i hate the feeling of not being able to outrun, outjump n watever my defender.. juz hate it!!!! the next time dat i meet them i will definately give them a tougher fight.. smell my ass the next time my dear neighbours haha~ ok i'm mean but too bad.. i hav an attitude when i'm on court haha~ ask the nj gals man.. whaha~ rachel is a gd teammate but utterly disgusting opponent on court haha~ i'm out to kill! hehe~ getting cranky liao.. starting to get sick of wking.. tink i burning out le.. boo~~~ but i need the money! wanna teach tuition like chinese( dun laugh!) hehe~ earn money...
bout the interview for sch of desigh n environment today.. tink i screwed it up.. totally hav no freaking idea wat's gonna be the outcome but u noe wat... haha~ liek wat kate sae.. when one dorr closes, another door opens!!! i juz recieve a letter fr moe today to go for an interview to be a primary sch teacher!!!! haha~ dream come true man!!! aniwae for all those pple who dun noe rach very well haha~ preety rach's dream is to become a really gd teacher~~~ hehe~ preferbly primary sch though i noe my husky n sexy voice gonna become my permanent disability hehe~ but i really luv the kids... best things to happen in this world... :)
fcuk you!||4/24/2004 11:30:00 PM
Friday, April 23, 2004
lesson i learnt....... life's too short to be wasted... follow ur heart... go for ur dreams n passion... life's a battle wif urself... n maybe fate... fight for it.. before its too late... reality reflects cruelty....
fcuk you!||4/23/2004 01:21:00 PM
Thursday, April 22, 2004
its been a long time man... when was the last time i updated my blog? cant remember... i'm lagging once again... shit me.. well maybe its juz pms... feeling damn bloated n fat... bah.... hate the feel og guilt after eating.. really hate it.. but again n again i will lose the battle against the devil inside me.. worthless? i dun noe... after losing almost 10 kg i shd feel happie but.. the weight seems to be on the rise again.. its the muscle mass gal.. wat's everybody hav been telling me... n things get worse when i keep getting hungry.. hah fast metabolic rate... my ass... when did all dis things start to matter so much to me.. or shd i sae when did i allow all dis stupid things to come n bug me... gimme a break pls... feel like running away,... shit me.. the feeling is back... slipping back into it... bit by bit.. rachel's such a piece of crap.... bah.. any uni wan me????
fcuk you!||4/22/2004 04:00:00 PM