Wednesday, December 31, 2003
I no longer am a child now,
all emotions & actions subject to evaluation.
And no doubt they come in conflict.
Why should I care about what others think?
Opinions are but the passing breeze;
and I know what matters more,
the call of the Heart.
And Death,who meets all in the end,
doesn't capture my soul.
fcuk you!||12/31/2003 01:04:00 AM
i feeling so damn tired now.. aching everywhere... training was mad to day .. as usual.. no surprise .. but i'm still tired ... e only bonus today is dat i finally met up wif wyee!!!!! arhg~ babe! i miss u so much! she gave me such a tight & warm hug~ i'm still savouring it now haha~ it juz kinda of took my tiredness away for a while!hehe~ okok... tmr's nye! suppose to be excited but i'm not feeling anything now... haiz maybe i will feel more excited tmr! hope so la hah! pray hard hard i will!!! gonna wear my new retro skirt tmr! damn cool haha~ so shd i go zouk or sos? tough question!sian.. tmr den tink...ming tian got coaching in the morning, wk @ gaby's place in the afternoon den go party after dat haha~ so packed man! i realise something... i haven been spending much time @ home wif my mum and dad... i'm starting to feel guilty abt it! shit!!! rach u r such a neh neh!!!! i'm really tired.. haiz~ stop complaining! trainings r good for u!!! kim sae on sat we gonna do 4 spokes run*shiver*for ur info.. dis is one of the famous nike runs! it super damn interesting coz u will confirm be dead my the end of the run dat is only assuming dat u r even finish it! happie smashing urself up on sat gurl! heh~ i'm trying very hard to be enthu bout it here! whaha~ i luv spokey runs!!!!!!!!
fcuk you!||12/31/2003 12:52:00 AM
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
me feeling damn happie now!!! whaha~ coz pengie gonna come back from japan le!!!!!!!!!!!!! bwahahahah~ somebody so shiok lo go dere and be tai tai haha~ while rachel rot in singapore hehe~ i realise dat i really lurve my darlin-cious frens alot alot!!! they r such a big part of my life!!!!without them, i dun tink i will be standing here le.. babes~ remember the times in nj when rachel was so damn screwed up... but i tink e 2 yrs in jc really made us grow up damn alotz~ so many things happen in dat short period of time... everything seems like yesterday! phew~ but aren't we glad dat everything is over and all of us r doing things we like! me coaching and contributing back to the netball circle who groom me into a not so bad netballer!peng enjoying her tai tai lifestlye!huiping and wyee gonna embark ona journey being youngsters' mentors!and me enjoyin being a party queen!!! haha~ parties, parties & more parties!my tk frens and teammates! oh my~ i really miss u guys like shit!!!! haiz.. i nv go send jess off today.. sad.... dun noe when will i see her again... sometimes i feel so bad.. i nv treasure some of my frens enough.. some juz leave.... frens whom i really cherish... but i guess dat's life.. pple come and go... actually i was damn freaking scare when peng and ping sae they might go us.. 8i will be so damn sian diao.. haha actually ah.. hehe~ i might sound bad.. lucky e tk netballers r broke lyke me hhaa~ no money to go overseas haha~rach suck!frankly speaking.. i'm really happie and feel xin fu dat i took on e challenge to coach sjc c team...e gals really made a huge difference to my life! they might not noe this... they might tink dat i'm a coach who is dere to share juz netball skills to them.. i dun tink they noe dat i oso learn alot fr them... understanding gals of a yger age(it's not an easy task!!!)... too many to name... there r oso so many things dat i wan to share wif them.. things i noe and cant wait to pass on to them... do u noe how much i wan them to noe dat netball is not a juz a simple game! netball is a team game.. a sport dat moulds and shape ur character!i really believe dere is no other sport in this universe dat will let u ecperience the power of a team of gals! e feeling is really shiok shiok shiok!!!! juz lyke how we were like when we were in tk! a game dat will make u a more discipline, determined,all rounded young woman! really!!!!!!!!!!!i'm really very touched when they gave me e cards and notes dat they wropte for me... whoa~ its overwhelming! can u sense it! i finally found a job dat i'm in luv wif!
fcuk you!||12/30/2003 12:20:00 AM
Monday, December 29, 2003
keep ur dreams alive.understand dat to achieve anything requires faith & belief in urself,vision,hardwork,determination.remember all things are possible for those who believe.
fcuk you!||12/29/2003 11:14:00 PM
Saturday, December 27, 2003
oh ya~ e gals gave me a handmade xmas card today!!! so touching!!!i'm gonna show off to eveybody man!!!! nanny nanny poo poo!
fcuk you!||12/27/2003 03:00:00 AM
i no longer have to do without now.
all colours are translated into sounds and smells.
and they ring infinitely sweet like tones.
why should i need a book?
the wind leafs thru the trees;
and i know what passes there for words,
and sometimes repeat them softly.
and death,who plucks eyes like flowers,
doesn't find my eyes..........
fcuk you!||12/27/2003 02:52:00 AM
so late le but rachel still not sleepy... sian.. today's training was slack .. as in compared to other nike trainings when i hav to run like mad!!!!hehe~ hope i'm improving consistently.. dis ya i really wan to whack it hard!!! i wan to go asian youth!!! i wan to go world youth next yr!!! no more time to waste le!its time dat i move my ass and go all out for my dreams!!! dreams do come true!! i believe in the beauty of dreams~in my heart i noe all dis will require alot of hardwk but dun noe why.. i'm not sscare at all! i really wan to make it dere. be the best shooter in singapore in 5 yrs! dat's kim's goal for me!u noe wat, i'm always damn motivated for netball de... the tk spirit still runs in my blood~ everything dat happens in tk still so fresh in my mind.. as if it only happen yesterday!i truly believe .. wiothout tk,my teammates, ms lee, grace and even ms tng... i wont be the rachel i am today! dare to dream, dare to go for my dreams!i bet some pple out dere will be wondering.. how can i be so passionate bout the game? train so hard for wat? not as if u can earn a living being a national player... SO????????????????????? why muz everythign got to do wif prospects?future?money? and even returns?there r some things in life dat u can only go for it when u r young.. i dun wan to be the one of the many pple in singapore. doing something for the sake of it... juz becoz its socially acceptable... after a levels, go uni, get a degree, find a bf, get married etc... i'm not depising anybody here.. but aren't u sick of this type of lifestyle! watever~ if u r very happie and looking forward to dis type of life.. go for it.. u r juz another sad case of the society. but i noe its easier to be said den done.... requires damn alot of harwork and belief in urself.. but i wan to take up e challenge!
fcuk you!||12/27/2003 02:34:00 AM
oh my!!!!!!!!!!!! its working!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! joy to the world!!!!!!!!!!!!
fcuk you!||12/27/2003 02:32:00 AM
please please let dis time wk please! i'm getting sick of the feeling .. writing everything u feel den technology fail u.. everything disappear wif a click... gone case~~~~let fate decide the fate of my blog....
fcuk you!||12/27/2003 02:30:00 AM
Friday, December 26, 2003
hey!!! my new blog!! haha~ after e 1st one fail me!!! :P so neh neh!!!aniwae.. MERRY XMAS eveerybody!!!hehe~ yest xmas eve was simply...FABULOUS!!!!haha~ how romantic can we be man!! can u imagine ... countdown to xmas on a boat... whoa~ shouting merry xmas to everybody dat we see haha~ ok we were quite mad esp hanxian haha~ all of us doing silly things together hehe~ huiping and bing staring at pple feet to see which foot cross dis line... i was juz HIGH!!! without any alcohol wehaha~ i still wan to sae.. HANXIAN U REALLY LOOK LIKE MR WONG WHAHA~ everything was so great except for some stuff... erm u guys noe wat i'm toking abt rite hehe~ suppose to go clubbing tmr but stupid pple like hx, bing and xiangyang got wrg info dat embargo got party neh neh~ den centro so long quene...make me so excited for nothing hee~ aniwae peeps i dun chiong as often as u all tink can heeh~ maybe i do go alot la but i dun really drink alot(i tink~ as in i nv get drunk b4 whaha~)so dun hav to worry for me la k hehe~ rachel is a big gal le i mean big haha~ pple wont dare to bully me haha~ sat got nike party le.. suppose to put a item wif grace but apparently.. nothing whahaha~ nvm la we shall be superwoman on friday and wk something out...tmr got sjc training... haiz those injure ah confirm feel very sian diao de.. as in who will feel gd sitting on e bench seeing pple train den ur hands and legs will start itching .. feel like playing ball.. so go play ball... run abit.. den here ms rachel cum... CAN U PLEASE SIT DOWN AND REST!!! haiz~ gals i understand ur feelings coz i was lidat last time too but u noe u guys r still very yg i dun u all to get injure further juz becoz of trainings or friendly or instead i dun wan u guys to be injure at all!!!! all of ur r my babie u noe.. but i feel dat sometimes its quite difficult for u guys to understand my intentions of my action so will see how it goes lo~ dat's why ah last training i really dun noe wat to sae to u all... like feel so dun-noe-wat-word-to-use....nvm .. change topic... nv run today whaha~ getting fat le yest eat dim sum for supper somemore hehe~ nvm later go zouk to get fit haha~ maybe i can see my eye candy dere haha~
fcuk you!||12/26/2003 10:31:00 AM
Thursday, December 25, 2003
blog fail me again
fcuk you!||12/25/2003 06:38:00 PM