Thursday, October 21, 2004
S Club 7
fcuk you!||10/21/2004 01:12:00 AM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
change blog liao... http://stylemeister.blogspot.com/
fcuk you!||10/09/2004 03:29:00 PM
Friday, October 08, 2004
i met up wif mummy yest n i juz felt so dman guilty after dat. i hav been enjoying sch n my life in general ever since sch started. stayed in hall n enjoying my new found freedom. but somehow, i miss my family badly. i noe ma feels very lonely nowadays since brother is so involved in gragon boat n pa forever socialising wif his honkie frens. since ma have us, she has been devoting all her time n attention on us. leaving no time for herself to pursue her passion.. not dreams.. her dreams = me n didi. no time to find frens. or shd i sae, she got no frens. maybe juz those hi bye type. im so worried for her. n it made my heart ache to see her like this. im having second thots if i shd go sikkim. she told me yest dat she is very worried. how?
wat shd i do?
fcuk you!||10/08/2004 10:16:00 AM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
sometimes i juz fel so confused abt things... simin sae i tink too much.. guess wat i neeed to do now is to forget n dun expect anything. pick myself n move on. but i dun feel right.. dun noe why... rizal ask me to tok to them but i cant bring myself to tok to anyone abt it anymore... i feel like im a total stupid fool ... wasting my time on stupid things n losing touch of reality.
i went mambo yest.. i had so much fun! so long nv dance until so shiok liao! grace n furby went n they simply made the experience a greater one! we shall go again k!!! really enjoyed myself like mad! at least.. for a moment, i didnt tink of anyone. but me n my frens. n i really do luv them. their friendship to me is more than anything in the world.
fcuk you!||10/07/2004 10:35:00 AM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
grease is sucha gd show!!! watching it juz made me feel so mambo-ish n happie!!! haha~ now, other than being a die-hard mambo fan, im oso a grease fan!!! hee~ enjoyed the time i spent in my room today, had all the time in the world to tink n do stuff dat i like... blast the music n dance to the latest r n b album by zouk called zouk Flava mixed by my fav dj andrew chow! read magazines.. went online n chat wif shuangz, eugene, ashiq n grace... tok cock non stop haha den in the evening, went for a mini retail therapy trip to jurong point. new fetish of mine--- perfumes haha im mad la! next on the list is the tommy hilfiger's true star n elizabeth arden's provocative woman! whoa~make me feel sexy ah haha! i sent in the application for the work n travel in us ting today.. praying hard dat i can get it so next yr i will be spending 2 or 3 months dere!!! hee~ but heard fr huifen dat next yr got competition fr 21s in may... erm.. see how la... dun wan to tink abt it now.... cant wait to go sikkim in dec too! everything is juz so exciting
i will wait patiently for u... till u forget her...
fcuk you!||10/03/2004 10:34:00 PM
im feelin very bad now...
1) i really miss my teammates but dere is so much wk n stuff on the list dat i dun hav the time to meet up wif them n let every single one of them noe how much i miss them... sometimes i feel so upset dat im such a lousy fren dat i wan to cry... loser... i miss them... 21s, tk, nj, nike n all the netballers who made a difference to me... such a big part of me.. i miss u guys like crazy
2) i noe i shouldnt be drinking so much. but i cant stop. i got to do something abt it b4 i regret. n yesh.. im not gonna let myself take the 1st puff. nv... i realy hope dat day will nv come... will i see the disappointed look on their faces?
3) sometimes, i noe im really stubborn n let my family down with my stubborn n wilful character. doing things the way i wan to n not sparing a thot fot them... im rebellious in my way.. i admit... n i feel bad n guilty bout it.. but i guess im born a rebel. i hate it when pple criticise me dat i dun care abt my family. u dun noe anything so keep the comments to urself. i dun need it. its not gonna make me feel any better. n im definately gonna feel better of without all this shit in my life. i dun have to show u dat i care for them or feel sorry for wat i've done to hurt them to show i noe i broke their hearts once again. sometimes, pple juz cant see the other side of me.
im gonna be alrite... i will find my way...
to sam... suddenly thot of u, when r we gonna meet up man? haiz~ i noe i sux... hope u r doing well in ur new job k! jia you n take care :)
fcuk you!||10/03/2004 01:01:00 AM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Today is life -- the only life you are sure of. Make the most of today. Get interested in something. Shake yourself awake. Develop a hobby. Let the winds of enthusiasm sweep through you. Live today with gusto."-Dale Carnegie
fcuk you!||9/14/2004 01:53:00 PM
i dun noe if i shd hate him. or hate myself? why am i feeling this way... im scare...im trying to forget n juz concentrate on my wk n trainings... but its not within my control... i need peace
fcuk you!||9/14/2004 01:50:00 PM
Monday, September 13, 2004
went for my 1st contact rugby training yest!!!1 hee~ it was so WHOA!!!! haha
really see the other side of gals man!!! rugby gals = tough chicks!!! my gdness! everything was juz so new to me! as in, netball is a non contact game ma.. den rugy is full contact game haha! but i muz sae i really enjoyed myself! all thanx to the BLACKS!!! hee! i will definately go next sundae for training hee~ it feels gd to be back home :) tink staying in hostel really made me appreciated tings more n dun take many stuff for granted.. gd gd :) heee nw im indulging myself in all this.. sports n studies..i feel gd... at least i feel dat i can control my thots better... feel more positive abt myself.. can control my emotions better when i can feel the stress n confusion setting in...i tink , ultimately, i juz hav to accept the fact that i cant pls everybody n shd juz follow wat my heart tell me... im capable of doing anything i wan :)
fcuk you!||9/13/2004 11:38:00 AM